Now Hiring: Someone to keep me on track, make me accountable and get me to fully recommit to my fitness goals. Must be willing to deal with my sometimes (cough-cough) thick-headed attitude, help me regain focus and push me back on track, so I can cross the finish line.

Yes. You read the above correctly. I need help. I need someone to coach ME. I seem to have lost focus with the increase of hours at my job and that can not be an excuse. I need some accountability for myself so I’m turning to my fellow tweeters, Beachbody friends and fitness folks for help.

I am having trouble sticking to a program. Heck, I’m having an issue sticking to anything. I am all over the place with my workouts and I need to correct this.

If you are interested in applying for this (unpaid) position, please comment below, tweet me, Facebook message me, e-mail me or send a carrier pigeon…anything.

This coach needs a coach! Stat!

There is something appealing about a woman who has confidence. A woman who knows she is smart, beautiful and strong.

I believe this is something many women strive for, or want others to believe they are, but many of us struggle with this.

In a society where magazines only show thin models and Photoshop is the airbrush tool of the trade, there is no wonder so many women look in the mirror and think they are not beautiful or think they are flawed. I know this is something I struggle with and I hope that struggle will not last much longer.

The funny thing about this is, the women featured in these magazines do not represent the average woman. The majority of women do not wear a size 0, rock 6-pack abs or have a bikini ready body. We need to stop placing all of this pressure to be perfect on ourselves and embrace our curves.

As a person who spent the majority of their life overweight and unhappy in their own skin, losing over 100-lbs is a huge change. For many months during my transformation, my mind didn’t recognize the changes that were happening. My clothes became loose, inches dropped and the scale began to move in reverse, but in my mind I was still the same over weight person who was embarrassed to go out and be social. I dreaded going shopping for new clothes and I felt like people were looking at me and noticing my “problem areas” because those were all I seemed to focus on.

Even today I have days were I forget how far I have come and that I am not the same overweight woman I once was. It frustrates me that I have lost as much weight as I have, wear a single digit size and sometimes still feel insecure and self-conscious. Is my body perfect? No…..but it’s mine and I know that I need to stop focusing on what I can’t change right now and always be proud of what I have accomplished. Sometimes that is easier said than done, but this is all a process and I don’t have any intentions of turning back so I better get used to it.

I am a beautiful, strong, smart woman and despite the fact that I sometimes let my inner demons get the best of me, I know how far I have come and I am ready to embrace the new me.

As I confessed last week, I fell off of the fitness wagon. An injury followed by getting sick started a chain of events that lead to almost 3 weeks of no exercise.

Thankfully, today I was feeling better and did X-Stretch from P90X, which my body truly needed.

While running some errands today and feeling like a loser for not working out in so long, I realized that these things happen and sometimes they happen because they need to happen.

During my “workout vacation” I was able to truly focus on my nutrition which is something I have always struggled with. The cleanse that I started back on the February 1st has done wonders for me. I have been pretty disciplined with it so far (as you know I already confessed to 2 cheats and I should add a third, but why go there right now) , I’ve tried new foods and I have renewed my love for cooking. These are all things that needed to happen but I didn’t always have time for while cramming workout sessions in on a daily basis.

In a lot of ways I think my body needed this break from the workouts. I have put my body through hell for a year and a half with rarely more than 2 days off at a time. When I would take those 2 days off, I usually ended up pulling doubles the next day, which is quite a lot for the body to handle.

Am I upset that I didn’t complete round 3 of P90X? A little. However I’ve done the program before and I know that I could just restart Phase 2 if I really wanted to, but I don’t think I will. I think it’s time to try something new. Plus my schedule has been pretty crazy and I don’t have that hour to truly commit to my workouts everyday.

For the next 30 days I will be trying Jillian Michaels “30 Day Shred”. I know a few people who have tried it and really enjoyed it. Will I complete the 30 days? I don’t know. I have to test it out and see if I enjoy it.

Some of you may think I am all over the place since completing Insanity, and you are probably right. I started the hybrid and dropped it after 30 days for P90X. Then I did 30 days of P90X before having to stop and here I am talking about the 30 Day Shred now. Maybe since it’s only 30 Days, it’s just what I need. Who knows. The important thing is that I keep fueling my body with healthy foods and that I keep moving. This is a way of life for me now and I sometimes just have to follow the detours and hope that I end up back on course.