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I Will Learn To Love My Body

Lately I have been full of struggles. I struggle to finish a full workout program. I struggle to eat healthy. But most of all, I struggle to love and accept my new body.

If we let ourselves,  its easy to believe that magazine cover girls (whose photos are air-brushed) are the norm and that the rest of us are somehow deeply flawed.

What we end up with is that nagging “I hate myself” or “I hate what I see in the mirror” song playing over and over again in our heads, fueling our painful frustration.

Getting caught up in not liking yourself because of your size, can quickly start whittling away at your motivation. It becomes that inner voice that makes you feel helpless and hopeless.

One of my new goals is to break this cycle.  I need to start looking at myself as a whole and realize that I am intelligent, funny, unique, and yes, I am beautiful.

I need to stop being a perfectionist and embrace how far I have come. I need to stop comparing myself to others and realize that everyone is different. I need to learn to listen to others when they tell me how amazing I look and what an awesome person I am (I am truly no good with compliments – those of you who know me personally, know this well).

True beauty shouldn’t be about fitting into a cultural stereotype but a quality that shines from within. That doesn’t mean we should stop trying to improve ourselves, it just means that our time is better spent focusing on building a strong, healthy body and mind rather than trying to fit into a cookie-cutter mold.

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– If you struggle with accepting your new body or have over come this feeling, I’d love to hear from you. Please leave a comment below or contact me directly. –

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Which Way Is Which?

As I chug along on this road, to the town of awesomesauce, I occasionally question if what I am doing is right. Did I take the right path? Should I have gone right instead of left? Am I holding this map upside down, cause NOTHING IS MAKING SENSE?

It is at that point of yelling at myself and tears streaming that I stop, take a deep breathe and realize that this is all part of the journey. All of the the things I question are my lessons. They are the things that help me to improve who I am, to become stronger both mentally and physically. Without the questions there is no journey, and without the journey I can’t grow as a person.

With that, I will finish out some of my frustrations via Vlog….I’ve been a total slacker with them and posting lately so I figured I would try to make it up tonight.

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Nikki vs Nega Nikki…FIGHT!


Meet Nega Nikki.

She is the dark inner voice in my head who likes to give me a hard time and make me second guess myself.

She shows herself in fitting rooms (you look fat), during workouts (you can’t lift that heavy), while looking for food to eat (Mmmmm Poptarts!) and when I’m hitting the pavement trying to get a hang of this running thing (Why are you doing this? Just walk, it’s easier and your still moving).

She is a BITCH.

I truly hate Nega Nikki and I battle everyday to shut her up. The constant inner dialog I have with her might amuse some, but to me, it is very draining and sometimes discouraging that I have worked this hard and still have battles like this.

My goal is to rid myself of Nega Nikki once and for all. I am tired of looking in the mirror and sometimes still seeing the “fat girl” I worked hard to say goodbye to. I am tired of hearing that nagging voice of sabotage, telling me I can’t run faster or further. That inner doubt that holds me back from taking a sparring class like I really want to try.

I’m tired, frustrated and at the end of my rope with her. If you ever hear me in a funk or letting her get the best of me…please…smack me. Sometimes I don’t realize that she has gained the upper hand.

We all have our Nega Nikki’s and I believe it is up to us to shut them up. We have a choice…we can listen to their negative, venomous, self doubting thoughts and stop fighting the good fight (you know…cause we don’t have enough actual people to do that to us)…OR…we can use those thoughts to give us the strength to push and fight harder.

The choice is yours….what will you do?

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Motivating Can Be…Motivating

I am always amazed when people tell me that I have motivated them to make changes in their lives. To me, I’m just sharing my story and documenting certain things to look back on and keep me moving forward. Then again, I find quite a few people to be motivating to me, and they are probably shocked too, as they are just doing the same.

As I sat here this morning, half asleep, sipping my coffee I realized that hearing that I have motivated someone truly motivates me more than anything. I love knowing that I am making a difference. I love knowing that there are others out there who want to take the steps I have and just need a little guidance. I love knowing that I can not only help them, but play a supporting role in their journey, because I remember what a rough and daunting road it could be.

For those of you just starting out or still nervous about taking that first step. Please, never hesitate to contact me with questions or concerns. I would love to give you the push you need, offer guidance or just play the role of cheerleader.

In order to succeed you just have to believe in yourself, keep pushing forward and know that sometimes you will fall, but you’ll get back up and be stronger for doing it.

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P.S. – If you would like a place to stay accountable, I will be running a weekly check-in thread on my Facebook page. You can click the circle logo to the right to take you there, click “like” and then jump on and tell me what you’ve done each week.

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Two Years and Still Going

This month marks two years since I started on  the road to health and wellness, and I couldn’t be happier.

I never in a million years thought that I would be 35 and in the best shape of my life.

As I’ve mentioned before, I spent the majority of my life overweight and unhappy. I would start a new weight loss program, become frustrated and go back to my unhealthy ways.

Every January 1st I would join Weight Watchers or the gym, like the rest of America, only to fall off the wagon by Valentine’s Day when chocolate took over the stores.

What is it that made this attempt different? I’m not sure exactly, but something just clicked. I did approach things differently this time and maybe that was the key.

I set small goals for myself instead of only focusing on the big picture. As I hit those goals, I felt my confidence grow and a new excitement take over. I liked working out and I liked how I felt when eating healthier food. Before I knew it I decided to take on P90X and that was a true turning point for me. I finally saw what my body was capable of and knew that I had the power to break the cycle and become a healthy & fit individual….I haven’t looked back since.

Since starting on this journey in May of 2009 I have completed:

  • P90X – 2.5 times (I had issues my 1st attempt & some workout ADD)
  • Insanity
  • Turbo Jam
  • 10 Minute-Trainer
  • ChaLEAN Extreme (I’m currently on my second round)

I have also done some Zumba, completed my first group workout (I have a phobia of working out with others), started jogging and become a vegetarian.

Was it easy? Heck no! There was a lot of sweat and tears shed (not to mention some vomit spewed during Insanity), but all of the above have helped me to lose over 100 pounds and completely change the person who I was.

I owe a lot of that to some amazing people I’ve met along the way. Without them I may not have come as far as I have. They’ve all inspired me to be my best and keep pushing forward.

However in the end, only I had the power to make the changes that needed to be made. It was up to me and no else to find the time, to make it happen and to reach for the happiness and health I deserved.

What’s my advice to those looking to make the change?

  • Start off slow You didn’t gain the weight over night and you’re not going to lose it over night. Plus the slower you lose it, the longer you will keep it off. You need to form a healthy lifestyle, there are no miracle pills.
  • Set small goals –  Don’t obsess over the total amount of weight you need to lose. Set 5-10lb goals for yourself.
  • Reward yourself when you reach those goals – You will be working hard to achieve this and you should reward yourself. It’s not easy to wake up early to fit in a workout or give up some of your favorite junk foods. Celebrate the victory!
  • Surround yourself with positive people – This was a big one for me. It’s hard to keep an “I can do this” mentality, when the people around you call you crazy, offer you foods you are trying to avoid or are waiting for you to fail. You need people who are willing to support you and cheer  you on. This is one of the hardest things you may ever do. You need a good support team.
  • Believe in yourself – Hands down….The. Hardest. Thing. – especially if you haven’t done the above mentioned yet. Most of us psych ourselves out before we even try. You need to embrace the “I got this” attitude. Get out of your own way!

I could keep listing things but to me, these are the most important. The majority of the changes are going to be mental. I didn’t realize this when I started and I am amazed at how many road blocks I have hit along the way. I thought this would be purely a physical challenge but to be honest…that’s been the easiest part, especially when I listened to the last bit of advice and stopped being my own road block.

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Two-A-Day Vlog Post


Well, I completed my week of two-a-days. Here is a lame vlog post for you. One of these days I’ll remember to turn the iPod sideways when shooting video. SMH.


Also – Thank you YouTube for always freezing the frame on the dumbest facial expression a person could make. You rock! *insert sarcasm font*

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Two-A-Days….Wait. What?

The warm temps we are experiencing here on the East Coast, are a great reminder that summer is right around the corner!

All too soon it will be shorts and tank tops everyday, not to mention the dreaded bathing suit (gasp) and I want to be comfortable in them.

For way too long I was self conscience and unable to wear the things I really wanted to. This year….I know I have control of that and I am going to seize the moment! It’s time to kick things up a notch and I have decided that for at least the next week, I will be doing two-a-days.

Yep….two-a-days!

I will be doing my ChaLEAN Extreme weight workouts three times a week (Go heavy or go home), Insanity twice a week (Dig deep) and a yoga or stretch workout everyday to improve my flexibility (Namaste).

Now, I would love to get out and walk or run more, but this is prime allergy season and I don’t know how well that will work out for me. I’m pretty good at improvising but I plan on sticking to above schedule for at least a week. (I’ve already made it thru 1.5 days so it shouldn’t be THAT hard).

Nutrition has been pretty good for me. Of course I had my stumbling points with Easter candy and a small Coldstone ice cream binge, but I’ve recovered.

So….let the two-a-days begin! I’ll see you all in a week…..with a possible Vlog!

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30 Days…

Recently I discovered that I work well with 30 Day goals.

That’s a good thing, cause I have a little over 30 days to get my booty in gear and hit a few goals before meeting the lovely @TabBenedict at the Beachbody Game Plan event, being held in Rochester, NY!

I had the pleasure of meeting Tab for the first time at the “Bring It!” book signing event in Long Island, back in January. We followed that up with a fun day in NYC and I’ve been wanting a chance to hang with her again ever since.

Lucky for me, she messaged me last week and told me about this event. Granted it’s a 6+ hour drive away but why not?! Every girl deserves a weekend getaway, right?

Now, it’s stuff like this that makes me bring my “A game”. I KNOW Tab is pushing play daily and working hard to hit her goals….I can’t show up like an out of shape slacker, especially since I believe there is a group workout involved as well. It’s bad enough I took breaks at the last one due to the heat. SMH. And yes, I do have a competitive side to me….it’s part of my charm.

To prepare for this event and meet up, I have started another round of ChaLEAN Extreme. I just completed week 1 and feel great so far. I need to up my protein which is a little tricky with the vegetarian aspect of things (those who follow me, know I cheated last week, but I’ve been good since the rib incident) and my booty has been screaming all week which is a good thing….especially with summer coming!

So that’s where I’m at right now. Anyone else attending this event? If so, let me know! I’d love to meet up with you.

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Just Checking In.

Hello everyone. I’m still alive and I’m still working toward my fitness goals. Thank you to those of you who asked if I’m still blogging or said you missed my blogs. That means a lot. Things have just been a little hectic with work and I’ve been trying to test the waters to see if I can maintain my results with just good nutrition and short workouts. After all….

I’m happy to report that the maintaining has been going well and I even made some more progress with the 30 Day Shred. I’m not sure exactly how much since I didn’t take measurements…I just wanted to do it. Sounds crazy since I’m always telling people to make sure they take their measurements, but I wanted a pressure free experience for a change.

Today I started another round of ChaLEAN Extreme. I figured with tank top season right around the corner, it would be the perfect way to achieve sexy shoulders and tone arms. I also just love the slow, heavy lifting method Chalene uses in this program. I received amazing results, FAST, with it last time, so I’m sure I’ll get them again.

Originally, I was planning on starting INSANITY again, but after really thinking about it, I know my knees couldn’t handle another 63 days of it right now. I will most likely toss in some Plyo Cardio Circuit or Pure Cardio instead of CLX cardio workouts from time to time. I also plan on running more often, I really want to reach a respectable time on a 5K.

Well….that’s were I’m at right now. I’m almost at the 2 year mark on this journey and I couldn’t be happier!

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Mi Vida Loca

As the few of you who read this blog may have noticed, a) I’ve been a slacker with my posts. b) There is a recurring theme going on here lately: My fight for motivation.

My life has taken a turn for the crazy. I’ve had the opportunity to take on  more hours at work, which in turn has left me tired and fighting for the strength to get my workouts done.

At first I was scared and panicking about this, but then I realized that this is a winning situation (no…I am not quoting Mr. Sheen, here). It is winning because I AM fighting to get them done. I could easily just make up excuse after excuse…I had a long day at work, I have to do homework with the kids, the laundry is piling up, I have to grocery shopping to do….but I haven’t. I find the time, even if it means a midnight madness session.

I may get overwhelmed at times and I may not be doing the 1 hour a day workouts anymore, (let alone the two a days I used to pull…ahh…the good ol’ days.) but I’m still moving, burning and building and THAT is what counts.

The closer I get to my goals, the more the lifestyle workouts have to set in and form. It is not always possible to do long sessions, but as long as positive mentally is in place, proper nutrition becomes second nature and I find time for a quick cardio/strength circuits – I will never lose the progress I have gained.

Keep moving forward and stay positive, no matter how crazy things get.

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